Apr 23, 2013

Turning 30...

Today is my birthday!


And not just any birthday...but my 30th.

Pretty nuts, huh? Turning thirty has brought out the sentimentality in me. I feel like I need to talk about turning thirty. This isn't just something you do without really thinking about it. Especially me, because you know...I may be thirty now, but I'm not REEEAALLY thirty. You know? I can't be thirty because thirty year olds are adults. They are grown-ups, right? I have too much youthful excitement to be this old. I still have immature stubbornness. I'm still goofy and say all the wrong things. I'm still experimenting with life and what I want out of it. I have always felt like I was meant to be in twenties, for like ever. I'm not supposed to really grow up. My spirit is still so young.


Well, let me just say, I think I have actually accepted this milestone. I've come to terms with a new realization. Growing old does not mean growing stale. When did we accept this misconception in our society? When did young become better than old? With age, we learn. We learn what makes us happy and then with age, we pursue it. I look back at my twenties...my first real decade of adulthood and what a decade that was. I can honestly say it was a happy decade. I remember a lot of laughter, adventures, and smiles. I became a wife. I became a mother. I learned more about myself in those ten years than in any other phase of my life.
But now, I know. I know what I want and who I am.
Here's the exciting part. In a lot of ways, those trial years are behind me now. I've grown into the person I am now, so now I can fully BE the person I am now. I can pursue my dreams and goals with the obstinate drive of someone who has been through the rights and the wrongs. Someone who knows how quickly the time passes and how wasteful self-doubt can be. Someone who has been around the world and met so many different people and taken bits and pieces of all that to create the mosaic of me.
I'm growing older, but life is not a hill. Why must we peak in the middle? Maybe life is really a steady climb, with no descent. The majority of our mistakes behind us, the lessons learned, the experience under our belt.

And now, at thirty, I have more momentum than I have ever had. I cannot wait to see what the next thirty have in store.


 

18 comments:

Olivia Grace said...

Happy happy birthday!! Here's to an amazing decade of self discovery and evolution!

deanna@delirious-rhapsody said...

happy birthday! My spirit is still so young. <------this. yes. so much!

Randalin @ Harvesting Kale said...

Happy birthday! As someone that is about to turn 33 (!!!!) let me tell you - the 30's are all kinds of awesome :)

Stacey said...

Happy Birthday!!!

Chantal said...

Happy Birthday!! I have no qualms about turning 30 (in 4 years...)

Brighton Harper said...

Happy Birthday! I felt the same way when I turned 30. Being in your 30s is awesome. Have a great day :)

Jen said...

Happy Birthday! I hope you have a wonderful day. :)

Ashley @ ThisUnscriptedLife said...

Wonderful post! Happy Birthday...again =) I love that first photo.
I don't know how we are grown ups. I'll be 28 this summer so in about 2 years I'll join you in the 30's. I definitely don't feel adult enough to be almost 30. I stop and think all the time, "I'm an adult...when did this happen?" lol

Dara said...

happy birthday!

Andi said...

Happy Birthday! Thirty does seem like a grown-up. My half birthday is tomorrow, and I will be 28.5, which seems very much like "almost thirty", and kind of freaks me out. I like your perspective on growing up!

Looking to the Stars said...

***HAPPY BIRTHDAY*** yay!!!!!! I turn the big 3-0 in August!

Chrissy said...

Yay, Happy Birthday, Jessica! Hope you have the best day! Hugs xxx

Mia @ The Chronicles of Chaos said...

Welcome to the dirty thirty club!! :) Happy Birthday!

ohseems said...

Happy Birthday!

melissa said...

Happy birthday once again! You're awesome and this new decade will surely bring you many, many awesome things :) <3

Stephany said...

Happy birthday, Jessica! I love this post. Sounds like this decade is going to be a great one for you! :)

angieeatspeace said...

Happy (late, sorry!) birthday! This is a great post. I will turn 30 later this year and definitely feel the same way about so many things you said.

Erinn C.D. said...

Happy belated birthday!!!!! I'm trying hard to just enjoy getting older and pace myself so I don't feel like that old saying "youth is wasted on the young". I'm enjoying life but I also know there are so many more great things to look forward to as the years go by.
Anyways, I hope your birthday was amazing even in the midst of the Germany transition :)

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